Lone Wolf's Calling

2007-05-31T19:45:00.000+08:00

Ok. Finally, a post after soooooooooooooooooooo long. Just came back from SFC camp yesterday. I was dead tire. Well, SFC camp was really enriching. Just too bad i missed like half of it due to my Chinese A's on Monday and GP lesson on Tuesday.

2007-03-15T21:03:00.000+08:00

Quote of the Day

Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile,

and finds in your presence that life is worth while.

So when you are lonely, remember it's true.

Somebody somewhere is thinking of you.

- K. Blackburn -

Some Dumb Stuff

2007-03-11T21:10:00.000+08:00

1. Person(s) you hung out with?
* Ck,Mic,Alf,YX
2. Person you rode in a car with?
* dun have a car :(
3. Person you went to the movies with?
* Ck,Mic,Alf,YX
4. Person you went to the mall with?
* Ck,Mic,Alf,YX
5. Last person that made you laugh?
* Ck,Mic,Alf,YX
6. Person you cried about?
* her
7. Person you texted?
* Dun rmb
8. Commented?
* Dun rmb
9. Hugged?
* I haven't hug anyone for a long time. :(
10. Do you like anyone?
* ya

C H O O S E O N E
1. Sun or moon?
* moon
2. Winter or Fall?
* Winter
3. left or right?
* right
4. 10 acquaintances or two bestfriends?
* 2 best friends
5. Sunny or rainy?
* sunny when i am going out. Rainy when i am at home
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate icecream?
* vanilla

A B O U T Y O U
1. What time is it?
* 2052
2. Where do you wanna live?
* UK
3. How many kids do you want?
* 2
4. What will you name them?
* Kate and Kal
5. When do you want to get married?
* after uni
6. How many kinds of cereal are inyour cabinet?
* none
7. Do you cook?
* yeap
8. Current mood?
* stressed
9. Have you kissed someone recently?
* :( nope. anyone wants to be kissed ?
10. Prayed?
* yeap
11. Been hugged?
* nope :(
12. Felt stupid?
* math makes me feel dumb
13. Missed someone?
* ya
14. Danced Crazy?
* yeap
15. Cried?
* ya
16. Lied?
* yeap

R A N D O M. Q U E S T I O N S.
1. Have you ever been searched by thecops?
* ya
2. Have A Dog?
* yeap
3. When was the last time you wentsleding?
* nvr done so b4
4. Would you rather sleep with someoneelse, or alone?
* someone else
5. Do you believe in ghosts?
* ya. Holy spirit

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1. What is more difficult for you,looking into someones eyes when youare telling someone how you feel, orlooking into someones eyes when theyare telling you how they feel?
* erm. i kinda of shy to look at ppl's eyes
2. Think of the last time you wereREALLY angry. WHY were you angry?
* some idiots treated me like crap .and it wasnt the first time .
3. You are on a flight from Honoluluto Chicago non-stop with your family.There is a fire in the back of theplane. You have enough time to makeONE phone call. Who would you call?
* her
4. You are at the doctor's office andhe has just informed you that you aregoing to die
(1) What would you do instantly?
* make a will if i have lots of $$$
(2) What do you do with your remainingdays?
* spent my time with my love and help those who need my help.
(3) Would you be afraid?
* yeap . definitely . anticipating death . wow . who wouldnt be ? But we should just think positively. We are going to be sitting by our father's throne. (:
5. You can have one of the followingtwo things: trust/love. Which do youchoose?
* both or none. BTW how u love without trust and how u love and not trust ?
6. You are walking down the street onyour way to work. There is a dogdrowning in the canal on the side ofthe street. Your boss has told you ifyou are late even once more, you arefired. Do you save the dog?
* screw my boss, save the dog !!!
7. You are unfaithful to yourspouse/significant other. Do you tellhim/her? Why or Why not?
* it wont happen. If that happens, it means u dun care able her. So why would anyone bother to tell him/her
8. Your best friend confesses thathe/she has feelings for you more thanjust friendship. He/she is falling inlove with you. What do you do/say?
* O. Ok.
9. Think of the last person who youknow that died.
* my grandpa

2007-03-10T20:15:00.000+08:00

Went out to study with my RJC friend today. Did Chem TYS for the first time in JC. I managed to do most of it without any help. haha.

Going to study again now. I want to finish organic chem by tomorrow.

300

2007-03-09T19:35:00.000+08:00

Just watched 300 at 2:25 pm today. We got quite some problems trying to get into it because it is a M18 show. We went to 2 other cinemas before we were allowed to go in, in the third one. The previous 2 cinema count the age by birthdays. lol. For the last cinema, the cashier didn't even check the age. lol. 300 is really good in terms of graphics. The scenes are great. However, there was no plot at all. You would see them fighting and beheading enemies for 2 hours. Despite this fact, I would still rate it the first Must-See of the year. I would give it 5/5 for graphics and 4.5/5 overall score. I really don't understand why it is M18. The scenes are not really that bloody, it is just around the same as Final Dest. 3. If it is for the sex scene, I would say that you can't see anything at all. Just screenshots in a slide show format. lol

OMG. I need to study. I have much to do but i am so so sleepy. BT 1 is in a week's time. I must do well this time. My aim this test is to get at least 55 Rank points. Coffee. Coffee. Coffee. Thats what i need.

2007-03-07T20:11:00.000+08:00

Press this link and open it in a new window before reading this post. http://jetsetluv.imeem.com/music/83XWmQKI/monster/

OMG....... The J1 girls, all those that i saw, are worst than the 1st intake. lol. Why ? lol. Where have all the pretty girls gone to ? There is still hope. I haven't seen all of them yet. O no!!! I shouldn't be so shallow. Just pray that they have good attitudes. lolz.

Today is super tiring. I am super sleepy now. 3 of us did circuit training for PE. We ran 10 laps, did 15 pull-ups, 200 situps and 20 sets of jumps. I can barely open my eyes now. I need coffee !!! Damn. Yesterday i had coffee at 9pm and i couldn't fall asleep at night. Whats more, i am sick, sore throat. I want my cold 100 Plus. I really think that 100 Plus is the best soft drink. It is not too sweet unlike cola, clear like water, not as fizzy as Sprite.

Ok... Time for maths again. I got so much to catch up. Bye

2007-03-06T20:37:00.000+08:00

The day started off as a boring day with all the lectures and tutorials. However, when it was Maths tutorial, the tremors came. Our whole was called to gather at the field incase the building collapse. haha. After 5 mins, we were told to return for our lessons. Our maths teacher took this chance to extend the maths tutorial by 30 mins. lol. After the lesson, we went across to SAS to have our lunch because SA food sucks. One would feel sick after eating it. When we came back, we saw the whole school walked towards us. lol. Immediately, we realised that is must be because of more tremors. lol. All of us didn't feel a thing but who cares. We were gathered at the field again. This time, we were dismissed. So, It's MOVIE TIME...... haha. We went to PS for a show. We watched Pan's Ladyrinth. lol. It was quite a funny movie when it is not supposed to. The monsters were quite dumb looking and I don't think it is gross for a NC16 show.

Doing maths now. I really need to put in some hard work. I am really not doing well for my school work. Ok, off i go to do my maths. bye

Screwed up keyboard

2007-03-05T18:56:00.000+08:00

My keyboard was fried today.Damn. Now i am using my mouse to type. lol. For those who are wondering, i am using on-screen keyboard. lol. I have to wait till Sunday to get a new one. lol.

Today was a bad day. Wait minute, haven't i mention that before? lol. School is getting screwed up now a days. Some J1 class was playing Captain Balls with our class. lol. We owned them 25:4. They got damn pissed. haha. One of the girls from thier class, their captain, start scolding CK for blocking and knocking into her. WTF. lol. CK got damn pissed, scolded some vulgarities and walked out of the game. The 3 of us walked off too, without any thoughts to support him. The other class was damn scared. haha. It took quite some time for our teacher to convience us to go back. The few of us didn't really play after that. We spent most of our time staring at the other class. After class, our PE teacher scolded us but we heck care him. haha.

Today's Bio SPA was quite ok. I forgot to draw graph until the last minute. haha. Only used 1 min to finish it. Maths test was crap. I didn't know how to do at all. lol. I really need to do something about it. Ok. I have had enough of clicking on this keyboard with my mouse. Off i go, to do some maths. Bye.......

2007-03-04T23:04:00.000+08:00

GIGS was quite boring as expected. Only two newcomers came. The next time round, i will ask more people to come. I just cut my hair. Yet again. It is damn short now. Tomorrow i will stare at that teacher again. Lets see what he can do to me. haha.

2007-03-03T18:39:00.000+08:00

I have decided to retake my Grade 8 Piano exam. Had the first piano lesson in the last 5 months this morning. Couldn't remember most of the 2nd and 3rd song. This morning wasn't really fruitful. Played 4 hours of WoW. I kinda of got sick of it. It didn't really give me the same joy as it once did. I feeling kinda of guilty not studying. I think that is a good thing. At least i cared about my studies now.

Tomorrow is GIGS and i forgot to invite friends to church. Never mind. It is kinda of boring anyway. I think it is rather sad to see the place only 1/3 filled every week. Our youth community is really small for a church of our age. I guess all of us have to really do our part and spread the word of God to more people.

Screwed up day

2007-03-02T12:11:00.000+08:00

In school now, posting around this freaking day. Early in the morning, i got caught for not getting in line by 7:30. Miss K scolded me and i stared at her. After assembly, she called me out saying my hair is too long when it is quite short. She let this gay male teacher take over to take down my name. I stared at him too, then he damn pissed with me too. He say he want me to see him on monday morning.

Then just got back Chinese A levels results. Got a C for it. I only got a PASS for my oral which is crap. I also don't know how come i get such shity results. I am still considering whether to retake it.

Photoshop fun

2007-03-01T23:27:00.000+08:00

Just made another skin. CS Photoshop is quite fun to play with. hahha
I merged these 2 pictures ........................

to form this ..............................

2007-03-01T19:36:00.000+08:00

A new skin that I made.

Ahhhh. Having a headache now !!!

Just who do they think they are ?

2007-02-28T20:00:00.000+08:00

Just who do they think they are ? Bitching and gaying around.

I don't scold you dumb asses back, not because i scare of you guys. If it is a war that you all want, i am all ready. for it.

"But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you" - Matthew 5:44

I must admit that this is really tough to be done. I only managed stop myself from cursing and scolding them for the last one year. I really couldn't stand it anymore. Those suckers are really going overboard. Attitude me? I am not being shallow here and discriminate those who are less phyiscally appealing. BTW as an average looking person, i am not really in the position to judge. It is you bitches' behaviour that i cannot stand. "Everyone are perfectly and wonderfully made by God." But i really don't see anything that i can consider perfect in them. I know that there are two sides to any argument. I admit that i am a bit bias against them in the first place. But is not the first time they have tried to do something funny. I have patience. But not so much.

OMG, I haven't been so vulgar since two years ago.

O Dear lord, please be with me. Guide me and show me your wisdom. Remove this grudge that has bind to my heart. Show me the true meaning of love and grant me this great forgiveness that you have. Enable me to embrace them with love even though they do not deserve it, for you have taught us to love our enemies just like loving those who loved us and cared for us. I know that this cannot be achieved by my own strenght. So father, I would just like to commit all these into your mighty hands. Show me your great plans that you have laid out for me and i will do my best to follow them as you order me to. So i would like to praise you and pray all these in your son's most precious name. Amen.

Heading

2007-02-26T20:23:00.000+08:00

I made 3 version of the heading and finally decided to use the black one..........

2007-02-25T23:20:00.000+08:00

Part of the new heading that i rendered. Took me 1 hr to do this. Going to finish it tomorrow.

New Skin......

2007-02-25T21:25:00.000+08:00

It has been quite some time since i last posted. Just changed the skin of the blog and i am still struggling with the template. The weekend past and i didn't revise much. damn. i feel so guilty now. BT 1 is coming !!!

The New Year wasn't really happening. Didn't go anywhere, just stayed at home , rendered some images and World of Warcraft all day long. HOW LIFELESS CAN THIS GET ?

I am experiencing this wierd feeling now. Something seems to be sucking all the life out of me. And worst still, i am helpless in resisting it.

Ok, i am going to wash the dishes then render a nice heading for my blog now. Bye.

2007-02-18T17:43:00.000+08:00

Pluto

2006-12-28T11:36:00.000+08:00

More Photos of little Pluto

Grandpa

2006-12-27T23:02:00.000+08:00

My grandpa died last night around 11+ pm. He most likely died of kidney failure. I don't know cos the doctor didn't say. My grandpa was sent to the hospital on the 7th of December. On the 8th, around 10 pm, we recieved a call from the hospital that he was in a critcal condition. Blood has clotted somewhere up his thighs and blood can't flow to his legs. The doctor asked us if we would like to take the risk and have him sent for operation. The doctor also said that she fear that he would not make it through the night. After some thoughts we didn't go for the operation because the risk is so high that it is just like sending him to die. The 9th just so happens to be my birthday. What a birthday would it be if your grandpa died on it. Well, that night i prayed that God would help my grandpa. I pray that he would be able to last till the 19th at the very least because my cousin living in the states would only be returning then. Well, thank God for all the blessing he has showered upon us.

My grandpa got better but he couldn't walk. He was fine all the way until Chirstmas. Around 2 a.m., the hospital called. They said that grandpa's condition got worse. We all rushed to the hospital and accompanied him. I only returned home at 10 p.m. that night to pack my lungage because i was coming back to Singapore on a 8 am. flight. I only got to know that he died this morning when my dad called.

Well. People will die someday. Its part of the lifecycle. I didn't feel sad because grandpa is already 81, he lived to see all his relatives for the last time and that he peacefully without pain. What else can one ask for.

2006-12-14T11:50:00.001+08:00

I'm in Hong Kong now. haha. was too lazy to blog until now. Still too lazy to type.......... They say, "Pictures speak a thousand words." So here goes...........

2 for $79

$99

$149

Brought all those on my second day back here.

This is little Pluto. Its so naughty. keeps biting my clothes when i play with it

3 different types of $100 notes. For whose do not know, Hong Kong lets its 3 major bank to print her notes. thats why there are 3 types of printing for every notes expect for $10 notes

2006-11-29T16:07:00.000+08:00

Just woke up after a nap after coming back from the 4e1 chalet. I would say that it is pretty boring, not because of the activities but the unreasonabily down turn out by our classmates. Many of them only came quite late in the night and only stayed for a little while. There wasn't enough time to interact with them. With so little people attending, there was little we could do. We spent most of our time playing the N64, a video game console produced around 6-7 years ago. The games were surprisingly fun despite its age.

I am feeling rather down instead of happy after the chalet. The low turn out just shows the decreasing strenght of the bonds between our class. This binding that we were so very proud of. This bond that differentated us from the other classes.

Here's a song that speaks my feelings now: http://gendou.com/amusic/?filter=grief+and+sorrow&match=0#
pls: i am not to the stage of grief nor sorrow yet. just a bit down.

2006-11-25T20:03:00.000+08:00

lol. i just wasted one whole month of holiday on WOW. i am lvl 52 now, with a lvl 51 Broken Tooth, Sabre. I start to feel sick of WOW. thats a good sign. looks like my hard work is starting to pay off. when i get really bored of playing, i will study !!! i got a feeling it won't be too long away. lol. But i am going back HK soon, on Dec 1st and i am having 4e1 Chalet on Monday.

hmm................................

I am feeling this wierd feeling that i cannot describe. i don't know what caused it but i don't like it. GO AWAY !!!

2006-10-31T22:55:00.000+08:00

My early morning WOWing session paid off. haha. I lvled up in just 1 & 1/2 Hr. haha. sian. today is Tueday, got server check. thats y i am not WOWing now. damn !!! i am addicted to WOW. I need to study !!! BUT I HAVE NO MOOD !!! DAMN !!!

My mum not angry with me liao. haha. so fast. sian. i damn sleepy now. I can't think of what to type anymore. Off i go to bed. tomo need to wake up early to WOW. haha. What a lifeless life!

2006-10-30T22:38:00.000+08:00

I am still coughing after 2 weeks. i dun noe whats wrong with me. i keep getting coughs every 2 times after i recovered. Anyway, I was WOWing just now. I reached lvl 26 liao. haha. And i tamed a rare wind serpent. It is red in colour !!! haha.

I pissed my mum off with my school promos results today when i showed her my report card. She was damn pissed and went to sleep at 9:00. lol. WTH. I bet she didn't sleep. just listening to what we doing. haha.

Waking up early in the morning to chiong WOW is taking the toll on me. my eyes are a bit itchy again. i hope they won't turn red again. I think it also have something to do with the PSI. it is 60 now. WTH. dun the indos have anything better to do than burning their forest and cooking their wild lives alive ?

Anyway. i am gonna to sleep now. quite sleepy. Waking up at 5 a.m. to WOW. so must sleep early. haha. what a bad boy i am !

2006-10-27T21:45:00.000+08:00

I brought WOW on last Sunday liao. HAHA. Thats why i am too busy too blog. haha. I chiong through the game. I am a lvl 21 Tauren Hunter with a lvl 21 Wind Seperent as a pet. I am going to LvL up to lvl 22 very soon. haha. I played day and night. haha. I just pray that i won't get so addicted that i dun study at all.

Sian. all my subjects for my overall results all below ave. WTF. I must work harder liao. if not cannot catch up. I didn't go so many lectures that i don't know where are they now.

2006-10-19T20:27:00.000+08:00

My eyes are almost fully recovered.haha. i really dun noe what i go school. I keep ponning lectures. lol. nvm about that. I am going on stage tomorrow. haha. It is for SFC; It's thanksgiving chapel tomorrow. We are doing some really funny and dumb actions while sing the songs. haha. I bet the school would laugh thier ass off.haha.

My mum is feeling damn pissed now. It is all my sister's fault. She flunked 3 of her subjects. I was quite surprise that my mum didn't get angry with me when i told her my results yesterday. haha. i am thinking of buying WOW this Sunday. I couldn't decide if i should buy it. I am afraid that my com cannot support it cos it fulfils only the bare minium of the system requirement.

I bet u guys are wondering why my blog has no photos at all ? This is because i do not like to take photos. I dun look good in them. ( i am not saying that i am good looking in real life, just that it looks even worst in photos. ) damn... haha.....

2006-10-17T19:53:00.000+08:00

Last night was really horrrible. I went to see the doctor again because i started coughing and my eyes are still red and itchy. When i reach the clinic, there are a lot of people. i am last in the queue and i have to wait for 14 people. I figured out that if each person take 3 mins , then i would need to wait for at least 42 mins. So, i went back home again to slack first. i went back to the clinic 30 mins later, the queue is only at 18. WTH. feeling pissed, i went home again to play com. I went back around another 40 mins later when they called me up. haha. The doctor gave me quite a lot of medicine to eat. Last night i popped 3 pills, 10 ml cough medicine and 6 drops of eye drops.

Today, my eyes are feeling much better. they are not as itchy and red. I dun really know why i go school today. i ponned all the lectures. hmm. but i really dun see the point of going to lectures. i dun listen to them anyway. So me and my gang went to SC to play some stupid games. haha. We also went to the Com Lab to surf the net. I so really want to play WOW la. i have enough money to buy but i scare my mum scold.

my econs FT only got a C, 56 marks. i am a bit disappointed but i feel glad too. really must thank the lord for his blessings. at least i passed. haha. my teacher seem quite happy i passed too. anyway, my overall results is the same as my CT; still 49 points. sian. nvm . i will work hard in the holidays.

2006-10-13T20:13:00.000+08:00

My eyes !!! They are so itchy. they are all red. i went to see the doctor 2 days ago. she said they are sensitive to the haze. she gave me 2 types of eye drops. I HATE EYE DROPS. they feel so horrible when they get into your eyes. afterwhich, there is this horrible bitter taste from your throat all the way to your lungs.

I got back 4 of my papers yesterday and 1 today. I kinda of screwed up. i got 1 B, 3 Ds and 1 E damn !!! but at least i am promoted !!! i still have got my Econs left. i hope i can get a decent grade for it. my teacher said i improved. however , i got a U for Econs during CT. SO, i dun noe what her IMPROVEMENT mean. i hope i get a decent B.

Tomorrow is SAJC's open house. I am on duty for my CCA ( SFC ). for those who dun noe what is SFC, it is SAINTS FOR CHIRST !!! i pray that more people ( chio bus ) would come to our open house tomorrow and decide to join our school next year to brighten up my remaining days in SAJC. HAHA. Seriously, the number of decent looking girls in SA is not up to its name. ( Chio girls is not my reason for coming SA !!! BUT it would surely make me look foward to going school. haha. i sound so horny.)

O well, enough of this crap talk. i got to go do my book review which is due tomo. i am only 1/4 through the book. i have no idea how am i going to finish it. I am to answer which truth from the most, and why and how you believe it can change your spiritual walk or service to God. OMG. i only have 1 to choose from. NVM. off i go to do the review. BYE.

2006-10-08T14:21:00.000+08:00

Promos are over on last Friday !!! haha. i didn't finish any paper except Econs. Sian. I dun care. A sad new. I flunk my piano Grade 8 exams. I dun noe if i should retake it. my mum keep nagging about it. i think i would ask god for help and just toss a coin to see if i should retake it.

My eyes are all red. I think it is because the blood vessel brust . This is the effect of chionging bio for 3 days, 21 hours each. I dun noe if it is going to heal. if it doesn't, i think i would get a pair of red degreeless lens to go with it. Haha. bloody red eyes. then i am going to bleach my hair to silvery white. white hair with bloody red eyes. i would look like a vampire. haha.

The promos are over, yet i am getting more and more busy. I have to do PW ( yet again ). it is due on tues. then i have to look for words that describe my CCA ( Saints for Chirst ), to make the background for a poster for the open house on Sat (14/10). I would also need to do a book review, on the leadership with jesus chirst. It is also dues this week, on fri (13/10). I still need to stay b in the night in school to practise for the thanksgiving chapel ( JC1s) on friday. WOW. So much workload.

Lastly, i would just like to pray for all those who are still having thier exams. i would just like to pray that the lord would guide them and lead them as they go through this period of hardship. Just like to pray that the lord would bless them with the strenght, the will, the determination to go on and study hard, so that they would be able to honour with thier good results. As for those who are going for the missonary trip this dec, I would like to pray that the Lord would bless them with good health and that the misson would be a success and that they would shine for God like a becon in the stormy sea, leading and guiding people who are still in the misery, loneliness and not yet been saved by His mercy and grace, back to the warm loving embrace of the lord.

2006-09-23T20:28:00.000+08:00

Today is another not productive day. i didn't really studied much. i am only at lipids now. i want to finish DNA by today. thats a long way away. well. i will do my best. I thined my hair today. i look much better now. lolz. hahaha. Thats all for now. bye.

2006-09-22T21:25:00.000+08:00

Ok. i will try to make it a point to update my blog often. i realise that days just flew pass me. without knowing, it is already 3/4 of my JC1 year over. i need to record down what have i been doing. Wah! Thats fierce!

Stupid EoM. Lao Shi rejected mine, saying that it has too much grammer mistakes. Sian. i am not making full use of my time. i am still playing Com. i hope i would be able to focus more on my studies. Thats all for now. bye

PROMOS

2006-09-21T19:44:00.000+08:00

Hi. i am back. i was just starting to feel better when this cold hard reality stuck me. PROMOS. it is going to start next mon. I havn't really study much for it. i only started half of econs, a bit of Bio ( the easy bit ) and maths. frankly speaking, i am not really worried about getting promoted. i figured out that is it quite easy to do so. however i promised my parents to get all Bs. O well, i better study hard. i was still playing com just now. Now, i am chionging EoM which is due tomo. Y the heck did MOE start PW? i think it is really pointless. i hate it. i hate doing things for the sake of doing them. Whats more, lao shi didn't come school today and i have no chance to ask her questions about my EoM. ARHHHHH!!!! SPYWARES !!!!. bloody spywares. my sis broke the com 2 days ago. I tried very hard to remove the viruses and i did success. but i couldn't get rid of the spywares yet because i have no time. It is quite irriting to see Ad popping up now and then. nvm. I need to go back to do my EoM liao. bye.

2006-09-01T11:18:00.000+08:00

For some reason, i cried again. i don't know why. All i felt was that as if i have lost something that is very dear to me. This feeling clings to me. i tried to get rid of it but i couldn't. I feel that i need to do something but i don't know what is it. O dear lord, please guide me and lead me.

Reality of God.......

2006-06-09T16:48:00.000+08:00

On Tue, I went to my CG (06S18) 's chalet. Before i went there , i didn't know any details regarding the time, venue, ............ etc. about the chalet. All i knew was that it is at costal sands. I thought there is only one costal sands and that it is the Costal Sands ( Paris ). So i went there. When i reached there, i tried calling my classmates to get the location of it. However, no matter how and who i called ( those who i think is there ) , no one picked up. So i sat down , prayed to the lord for help and wait.

All of a sudden, i got a feeling that they went to wild wild wet. I carried on waiting for another half an hour. Then, i was so hunger i decided to go to downtown east to have my dinner. On my way there, i saw a sign. Costal Sands ( Downtown East ) . I didn't even know that that place is called costal sands too. Then i carried on walking till the gate of it. Right outside the gate, i meet my classmates in swimming costume. Should i have left a minute earlier or later, i would have missed them.

Truly, no one could have done this expect GOD.

April's Fool

2006-04-01T21:34:00.000+08:00

I just lost another friend. A very good friend of mine. One that i can share my secerts with. It was my fault. She had trust me so much but i failed her. I hurted her badly. I know that once trust is lost, two person cannot be friends anymore. I cried the whole of last night, reflecting on whats wrong with myself, praying, understanding the scriptures from the bible. ( ROMANS 8:14-25 ). I know that whatever i do now, it will not make a difference. I do not expect her to forgive me. even if she does, our friendship will not be as good as before. I would like to say i am sorry again.

I guess i am pretty screwed up, losing friend after friend. The drive of my life is to make a difference in the lives of people i loved. I did it, just not the way i intented to. I really very sad. I know whats wrong with myself. I like to do wrong things on purpose. Sounds stupid , isn't it. I like to know how people react to different situations, so i do bad things on purpose to test them. So i end up hurting people's hearts. lolz......... But i guess this is needed to find out who really is worth my love.

The Lock

2006-03-25T19:29:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, i just wonder how come other people have so much to write about in thier blog. i just can't seem to think of anything to write about. or is it ? i feel that i just can't open myself to others. i dun seem to trust anyone, not even my family members. i can feel this huge lock pad locking up the true me. may it is because it is too vulnerable. always acting to be the person i am not is getting more tiring. i can't seem to find the person with has the key to my heart. those who are willing to talk to me does not hold the key to my lock. i tried hard to confront myself. but i could not convince myself. i can't feel any emotions since i locked myself up. i don't feel frighten, happy or sad anymore. this became a hindrance, keeping me away from the lord. i don't know what to do. i guess i am lost ? lolz...................

New Graphic Card.

2006-03-14T20:52:00.000+08:00

Today, i went to Sim Lim to get myself a new graphic card. Inno 3D GeFORCE 6000GT. It coseted me $215.25 !!!!.

The Lord's Plan

2006-03-08T18:55:00.000+08:00

TJC called me yesterday and informed me that i am not admitted into TJC. Although i am disappointed , i am not upset. I never regreted trying. I never regeted doing my best to pursue my dreams. As what the VP of TJC said about SAJC," SAJC is a good JC." I think so too. I am proud to announce to the world that i am a Saint. Since the Lord feels that SAJC is a better choice for me, i will obey his will. I will do my best . I will make SAJC proud.

Prayers

2006-03-05T16:13:00.000+08:00

O dear Father. I thank you for all your blessings and for being an important part of my life. I would like to pray for all those who are appealing for JAE posting ( inculding myself ). I pray that you can guide us, show us your wisdom and lead us through this time of confusion and chaos. I pray that you will strenghten us and bless us with the will to pursue our dreams. In the name of Jesus Chirst. Amen

Good News

2006-03-04T14:13:00.000+08:00

TJC called me just now and said that they have shortlisted me to go down to TJC on mon for an interview at 12:15.

O Lord. I thank you for giving this chance to prove myself worthy to be in TJC. O Lord. I pray that you will continue to watch over me and guide me through. I pray that you will continue to be in my life. In the name of Jesus Chirst. Amen

Special Thanks to:
Monica - for give me all those ideas to write in the essay.
Henrietta - f or helping edit this essay.
Miss Tan Chye I - for helping me write a letter of recommandation

My appeal essay to TJC

2006-03-03T17:50:00.000+08:00

Ever since the principal and vice-principal of Temasek Junior College came down to my school, Zhonghua Secondary, to share its values and beliefs, I have been drawn to the college and it became my dream to study there.

Hence, I was utterly disappointed with my preliminary examination results as it did not meet the cut-off point for TJC for the first intake. It was my dream of being able to study and play in Temasek JC which kept me going. It pushed me forward, to study harder, striving for better results so that I could enter Temasek JC for the second intake.

“For College. For Nation.” - this motto strikes a chord in me. It calls for each TJCian to hold loyalty in high regard. Loyalty, be it to friends, family or a school, has always been an unwavering value of mine. When I went for TJC’s open house, I could feel and see the students’ passion and loyalty to the school. Each visitor was welcomed with a goody bag and a warm greeting. Though the visit was brief, I felt drawn to the school and its vibrant environment.

Thousands of miles from my homeland, Hong Kong, I came to Singapore to seek a better education. My secondary school life was especially memorable and unforgettable. My classmates showed me how unity can really make a difference. We sacrificed our time to help each other when we saw that our friends were in need. We faced problems together, staying back after school to tackle those issues. We encouraged each other, motivating one another to do our best. We all shared the same goal which was to do our school proud by setting a new lowest average L1R5 record for our school. In the end, our goal came to fruition. The elation felt at that point in time is indescribable and it made me believe more than ever before that perseverance is the key to success. This feeling of working together, unity and the sense of belonging, tugged at my heartstrings. While that chapter spent in secondary school has closed, I strongly believe that another beautiful one can open in TJC.

I really appreciate what my secondary school teachers have done to help me in my quest to enter Temasek JC. They gave me extra lessons after school hours, and graded the additional exercises I did. Their dedication towards teaching really impressed me. My Physics teacher hailed from TJC and her passion and loyalty to the college is admirable. She recounts her days at the college fondly and how lucky she was to have been accepted there. Her story fuelled my passion and made me work harder for the Os.

Why Temasek JC? Temasek JC has everything I would ever seek for: a vibrant school environment, diverse culture, and caring and understanding teachers. I would like very much to be part of this big family and I am willing to work hard for this dream to come true.

Appealing.

2006-03-03T07:55:00.000+08:00

My worst night mare had come true. I was posted to SAJC instead or TJC. Maybe i am not faithful enough to the Lord ? Anyway , i am appealing today even though the chance is at most 10 %, i dun care. I believe that as long as one dares to dream, have faith in the Lord and have the determination to try, nothing is impossible. Wish me Luck !!!

Faith in the Lord

2006-03-02T18:31:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow will be the release of JAE. i am feeling a little bit worried now because of yesterday's incident. Yesterday, before the saints and I went to watch Final Denstination 3 ( a pretty lame movie which i will write a review later ), we got news that the posting results is out from Julia's friend. Juls's friend , half cryingly told Juls that she could not get into TJC eventhough she got 9-2 for her L1R5. OMG. i only got 9-1. How am i suppose to go to TJC? But i believe in the Lord that he will answer my prayers as long as i have enough faith.

MATTHEW 21:22 " IF you believe, you receive whatever you ask for in prayer. "

Forgiveness

2006-02-26T20:18:00.000+08:00

Today at church during bible study, we were taught to forgive others as well as ask for forgiveness to those we have offended. This reminds of somebody whom i will not name seems to be angry with me since last june holidays for some unknown reasons.

A message to whom i had angered

You had been one of my best friends in the past but today we seldom talk to each other. I really have no idea what happened that strained our relationship. I feel sorry that i did not ask you for your forgiveness earlier but today i ask your forgiveness for what i have done wrongly or said wrongly, whatever them might be. I did not link you to this blog but only hint you. For when you are interested in viewing my blog, that is when you have forgiven me.

I pray that you will read my message soon and that The Lord will guide you and answer your doubts whatever they might be.

2006-02-26T14:24:00.000+08:00

Hello. This is my first post here. I took 1 day to figure out whats wrong with my template code. Anyway. Welcome to my blog. I hope you will enjoy your stay here. Well. Thats all for now. Got to play Com. now. BYE !